Relieved

Ah well, at least now I know that you're okay. That's all I need. Thank you and good luck :)

Almost... Always...

Almost new year...
Almost reached the day...
Almost there...

Me.
Always here...
Always you...

Butterfly in my stomach is back.
Dynamite in my chest.

Me and my mind - we don't really get along well lately

And here i am now.
Sitting all alone, waiting for my mpek mpek to be fried.
The food that i suddenly craving for tonight out of no reason.
My guess, i was just making myself an excuse to drag my feet.
Need to keep my hands busy.
Got to keep my mind too busy to talk.
Cause lately my mind talks too much.
And i really don't like what my mind talks about...

You

I love you too much.
But I will not love you any less than that.
Cause you do deserve it...

Another HTML quiz

Does anyone know how to give more spaces for the area between posts?
Also for those that were made on the same day?

Look here.. My posts are chaining.. There should be more spaces there, right?
Which one is the HTML codes section for that one?

In the mood... In the mood.... ^_^

Losing my tastebuds...

Taste buds are small structures on the upper surface of the tongue, soft palate, upper esophagus and epiglottis that provide information about the taste of food being eaten.
The human tongue has about 10,000 taste buds

- taken with no authorization from wikipedia-

Cuma gara2 popmie…
Sungguh merasa rugi….
Hiks…

Btw, nyari2, ga nemu2, apa sih bahasa indonesianya tastebuds???

HTML for Dummies

Hoooray...!!! ^_^

Hehehehe...
It's fun...! So damn fun...!

(padahal bisanya juga baru gitu doang...)

Mini observation (just for fun)

My mini observation

8 out of 14 persons entering the restroom doing something that undoubtedly in fact would do some degree of pollution to the hygienic level of their hands (its either pee or pup, or combined.. sorry..)...

Walked out of the restroom without washing their hand…

Being a positive thinker, at least we can save more amount of water on this earth. Go Green..! ;p
This observation has no further benefit towards the quality of our life nor the society.
However it gives me more thoughts the next time I have to shake hands with other people. He2…

Location : Ladies rest room, Raharja Building , 7th floor.
Date : February 27, 2009.
Time : During office hour*
Method : Observation direct and indirect**

* -- in detail from 10am to 6.30.pm – my version of office hours to be exact he2
** -- meaning, you don’t have to witness everything to know what they’re doing behind the doors. The noises can be very convincing, don’t you think? ^_^

The observation was taken in an approximately 1 hour and 30 minutes in cumulative.
No, I didn’t stay in the rest room that long in one round…
I was washing my self before prayers and got more opportunity to visit the restroom thanks to my current stomach condition back then…

Another thing, now i'm using a tissue to layer my hand when i open the door handle, exiting the restroom... ^_^

No wonder....

After for about almost a week got tortured with this seem to be forever cold, just got a shocking thing last night...

I just realized that all this time I was taking the wrong doze for my medicine...
I was taking the kid's doze...
Only half of what I supposed to take...

Just how on earth did I ever get to that stupid idea???
Sigh...

T_T

Lost and Found : Locks and Keys please...

Warning:
Please do not expect for any intellectual content on this post.
I don’t even use a storyline on it… Simply a spill of my thoughts…

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It has been a while since the last time I put on some writings on this page…
The fingers were going numb…
The mind was going twisted…
Now the heart is being preoccupied…

What exactly is the purpose of life itself?
Nea…
That question would be unbearable for my brain capacity level…. ^_^v
It’s not it…
Won’t be questioning on that, not now…
I’m definitely not a person that can comprehend all that philosophical theory of life
Oh please… the processor that I’m using is a limited edition one, remember? (literally…)

I just want to talk about life
My life…
And how am I going to go through this journey…
One thing for sure, I don’t want to be alone along the path…
Though for quite some times, always thought that I can deal with it on my own…

There’s an old quote that I happened to read…
“A soul mate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to our locks”
-by dunno who-

Darn..!
I have let my locks hidden and throw away my keys…
Can’t let the locks being open yet only to find that it’s the wrong keys…
But then again, how would you know that it’s the right one if you don’t give it a try?
If you passed through the wrong keys, just let it go…
So that when you finally found the right keys, they worth the pain…
The struggle prior the blessings…


Are you the one who’s holding my keys..?

Money is in the air...!

I always thought that it was only happen in the movie… Cuma sekedar ungkapan belaka… Ga pernah nyangka I’ll be able to be an eye witness for such an amazing scene Tapi setting lokasi, waktu dan jalan cerita memang tak terduga.. Setting lokasi : On the bus, Deborah jurusan Depok - Bulus otw ke Cilandak area, still hangin’ around di sekitar jalan Joe Setting waktu : Pagi, office hour peak time… Tokoh utama : Kenek Deborah Jalan cerita : Sang kenek, as usual bergantungan di pintu bis.. (bis berjalan cepat, angin berhembus) Ia mengenggam uang-uang kertas di tangan sambil berteriak2 mengundang penumpang Tikungan menjelang… Bus kota terus miring ke kiri oleh sesaknya penumpang yang bergantungan… (Franky dan Jane mode : ON) Sang kenek tiba-tiba tergelincir… Reflek ia menggapai pintu bis.. Ia lupa sesuatu… Ada uang-uang kertas ditangannya… Beterbanganlah uang-uang itu terbawa angin… Terbang… Jauh…. Melayang… (dipungut orang…) Bis mendecit…. Sang kenek berlari panik mengejar lembaran-lembaran uang yang berhamburan.. Semua terpana… Money is in the air…. -end of story- Note : Sang kenek kembali ke bis disambut makian dari sang sopir Sayang seribu sayang, bahasa pengantar yang digunakan adalah bahasa Batak… Penulis tidak mengerti, jadi maaf, tidak bisa diceritakan disini… Dari sudut pandang profesi asli penulis yang kebetulan digariskan oleh nasib menjadi HRD, dirasa perlu untuk menjabarkan job description dan requirement-nya sebagai berikut : Job title : Kenek Required ability : - Strong and stable voice (high pitch is recommended) - Strong hand grip ^_^ A kind message for the poor kenek… Get a grip, hehehe…. (Jahat ya gw? ;p Maap…)

hotspot

Tempat apa yang pertama lo cari kalo pindah ke tempat kerja baru? Selain workspacenya itu sendiri ya… As it for me… - Tempat sholat (syukur2 kl ga usah wudhu angkat kaki di washtafel kamar mandi..) - Kamar mandi. Lengkap dg doa2 bahwa disana ada fasilitas higienitas yang memadai dan manusiawi… Kalau kamar mandi basah, semoga kerannya nyala selalu dan bersih airnya. Kalau kamar mandi kering, semoga spraynya beres dan ada tisu… oh ya, tisu, tisu, tisu…. - Last but not least… HOTSPOT… Tempat kita bisa nge-net wireless?? Lebih enak lagi kl bisa sambil ngopi-ngopi, waaa… Wait… Gw ga secanggih itu, hehehe Hotspot? Yea… Literally… Hot = panas Spot = titik; tempat Terjemahan bebasnya, tempat panas… ^_^ Let’s see.. A peak on my medical record… Seriously ill, no… Permanently sick, absolutely yes… - Alergi dingin --- Check! - Sinusitis --- Check! - Polip --- Check! - Ndeso --- Double Check! It has been like forever, gw selalu mengibarkan bendera perang sama hasil penemuan teknologi yang bernama Air Conditioner… Gak musuhan banget2 sih.. Lagian gedung mana sih sekararang yang ga pake AC.. Kl gedung tinggi2, jendela semua ditutup kayaknya otomatis harus pk AC lah… Dengan catatan suhu masih dalam kadar manusiawi… Tp susahnya, gw selalu dpt gedung yg ac sentral… Mana bisa teriak2 minta dikecilin acnya?? So… Di kantor baru ini, dimana computer lebih disayangi daripada manusianya, it is so damn freezing… (at least menurut gw…) My boss has already given me a title, Dwi si pilek abadi… ^_^V Dihukum karena satu ruangan sama gw, dia terpaksa merelakan lubang ac di ruangan kita ditutup lakban semua… Mungkin dia males gw selalu bernafas ngik-ngik saking ga bisa nafas dan always has that ‘mbeler’ expression, hehehe Dan yang paling penting, dia udah apal kl gw tiba2 menghilang dr kursi gw… It’s okay, ga usah dicari… She knows I’ll be back in 5 minutes.. I just pay a visit to my beloved hotspot.. Yup, finally, I’ve discover my hotspot disini..! ;) Kl di kantor lama berbentuk jendela di pantry lantai 3 Disini berbentuk tangga darurat (kok ya herannya ada yg sholat disitu??) Butuh waktu survey sekitar satu minggu buat menemukan tempat yang tepat Dilihat dari segi sudut pandang, derajat kehangatan dan jauh dekatnya dari jalur lalu lalang penghuni kantor…. Tapi saat ini, proudly announced : “I’ve found my beloved hotspot!” ^_^ Ada yang mau nemenin??

the fate of my beloved dengkul

for the second time around of this month (yaa, bulan ini juga baru jalan dua minggu sih...) i found myself, duduk di bis, tp kejepit... kenapa kejepit? entah... apa kaki gw memang kepanjangan ya? pernah ada yg bilang sih kl kaki sama tangan gw ga proporsi sm badan.. too long, jadi mirip hewan pemakan pisang (ga sampai hati menyebut nama asli saudaranya charles darwin itu...) and i hate my friend dengan sepenuh hati, hehe tapi gw udah kebal mampus sih sm omongannya dia (huhu, kangen nih dul...) so, tadi gw duduk dengan dengkul yang ditekuk tajam, kebentur kursi depannya lagi.. berhubung kursi itu posisinya di atas bendulan ban belakang bis (arggh!! nambah derita aja) kl diliat dari samping sebenarnya posisi duduk gw tadi lebih mirip jongkok... jongkok dg maaf, my butt disangga kursi... (membayangkan kembali pose tersebut in my mind trus jd ilfil sendiri...) duduk setengah jam dengan posisi nanggung kayak gitu sedikit menyiksa juga waktu mau turun di beberapa titik kayaknya menghambat jalan darah... mungkin yang ke otak juga ya? hehe agak pegel pas turun dan mencoba berjalan normal... resolusinya? naik kendaraan pribadi aja neng.. ^_^ kl belum mampu berdiri aja deh, hehe... lebih ramah sm dengkul... (elus2 dengkul yang agak membiru gara2 td bisnya ngebut tp hobi ngerem)

gubrak..

sebenarnya punya dua draft blog siap upload, tinggal edit dikit jadi... mau bikin juga report on the spot INCUBUS Jakarta Concert.. (mike, i love you...) tp butuh waktu sedikit lama, jadi males... ada yg sedikit mendesak di hati... tidak bermakna, tidak berguna.. tapi menyesakkan hati.. hiks... yesterday baru tau, there's a colleague of mine yang waktu pertama ketemu gw takut deket2 sm gw... why? all this 'bekas jerawat' on my face (hasil stress sebulan terakhir di kantor lama)... dikiranya gw cacar... oh dear....

the doors...

never thought that an open door can make such a painful effect on me...

never realize that the pain is caused by my self...
that i'm killing my own soul...
never thought all this time the door are kept open...
thought i've closed it long time ago...
putting myself in the way to keep the door open all this time...
keeping the wound open at the same time...
something i never realize..

that open door keeping myself to open my eyes...
to see that the hallway are filled with so many other doors...
my hands, my hearts are too pre-occupied to say that i'm okay...
well i'm not...

when the open door is being knocked again...
too afraid to let it closed...
fortunately sane enough to keep it from being open too wide...
not again...

took a lot of my strength to pull my hands and close that door...
it's hard and painful...
but when it's closed, i'm thinking...
i should've done it so much long before...

no, it's not that i'm not good enough...
but i'm too damn good for you...


- grow up! will u!? -

CASE CLOSED

New Year (birthday ?)

i was born in this world by my beloved mom on december 31st, 1981...
9 am in the morning...

but somehow, on my birth certificate and consequently on my other related lifetime documents, it is noted that i was born on January 1st, 1982...


cuma beda sehari, for God sake...
tapi selalu seakan2 gw jadi korupsi umur setahun...
jadi anak bawang, hehehe...


gw sudah sangat2 terbiasa dengan fakta bahwa pada awalnya orang2 di sekitar gw akan terpana waktu tau tanggal ultah gw...
'waa, pas tahun baru ya?'
'asik dong? dirayain orang sedunia?'
yang lain senada seirama sih sm contoh2 diatas...

tapi somehow gw selalu tau gmn endingnya...

yup... they forget it...
hiks... hiks... ;(
gak nyalahin mereka sih, cm mmg harus diakui kl orang akan lebih tertarik merayakan tahun baru dan akhirnya lupa sama ultah gw...

cm segelintir orang yang tiap tahun inget sm ultah gw dan say happy birthday on time...
really appreciated them, alot... ^_^
gw justru tiap tahun lebih tertarik menghitung berapa banyak orang yang inget ultah gw tahun ini, drpd inget kadonya...
(lagian gw takut dipalak traktiran bwt ganti ongkos kado, hehehe)
so far, belum pernah lebih dari jumlah jari di tangan gw ;p


tahun kmrn gw menghadapi fakta yg cukup menyakitkan...
i'm so close to depression krn orang rumah pun ga ada yg inget ulang tahun gw...
secara thn kmrn tuh ultah gw barengan sama hajatan idhul adha..
(mungkin sapi2 itu layak mendapat perhatian lebih, kan umurnya udah tinggal menghitung jam, hehehe...)
sampe sore blm ada yg inget, hampir nangis (hehe, konyol ya? suka lupa umur...)
ternyata adek gw liat... hihi, malu juga sih...
dia tanya, kenapa...
gw bilang, kok org rumah ga ada yg inget sih?
malah temen2 gw udh pada nyelametin...
and there she was...
staring clueless at me, dengan polosnya dia nanya..
'kak, gw bingung, sebenernya elo lahir tanggal berapa sih?'

bletak!!!
aduuuuh, gw ga tau mau komen apa, hiks...
saatnya menerima nasib, hehehe...
luv u sis... thanx for the wake up call... ^_^


so, sepertinya sudah saatnya gw berhenti meributkan hal remeh kayak gini ya?
this year, banyak orang yang gw ga sangka2 ternyata ingat...
hmm, ternyata maknanya lebih dalam drpd jumlahnya...
senang sekali...

my mom habis belajar sulam pita dari hasil kumpul2 ibu2 RW...
she made me a beautiful bandana...
^_^ love u mom...

my dear friends juga ngasih kado...
email indah... "traktiran di mana??"
hehehe...

tahun kmrn mrk kompakan kasih kado dg satu tema...
tebak aja sendiri temanya...
in total, dua jam meja, satu boneka kura2, satu buku time management... ;p
untungnya ada satu penetralisir, gw dikasih kerudung...

this year, i decided to be happy, no matter what...
i have my time ^_^

my gift to myself last year...
a new cellphone (flip, hehehe... and amazingly blm njeplak smp saat ini...)
this year, my gift to my self is...

"the ability to ride a bicycle..!!"
hahaha...!!!!
(tp blm bisa belok, hehehe, butuh usaha lebih lanjut... mohon doa restu...)
from all of that....

Happy Birthday to Me...!!! ^_^

kacamata vs kereta

November 22, 2007

Kemarin tiba-tiba menyadari, my eyes are getting even more blurry…
Biasanya gw gak mendeteksi adanya masalah penglihatan kecuali kl lagi ngetik di komputer.
Makanya mmg selama ini pk kacamata cm kl lg gawe…
Atau kl lagi takabur, trs coba ngeliat melebihi jarak pandang manusia…
Biasanya sih kl ada tulisan discount atau ada makhluk lucu ciptaan Tuhan yang lewat… (piss…)

Tp kmrn cuma jarak dua meter, I can’t see a person’s face clearly…
Yang terpikir pertama, minus mata gw nambah…
Tp masak secepet itu sih?
Cari second opinion, mungkin terlalu terang monitornya…
Yah well, itu bisa jadi sih, tp berhubung gw males ngutak ngatik monitor (takut rusak, abis ga ngerti, males…), pendapat kedua ini saya amini saja, tp di diemin…

This morning, on my way to the office, di atas Debora tercinta….
Could it be that I was only lack of sleep?
Hmm, kl diitung2, dulu waktu kantor di pecenongan, itu sejauh2nya umat…
Tp kl pas pulang naik kereta bisa duduk, trus tidurrrrr….
Lumayan, sejam ada lah…
Most of the time bisa sih, lha wong lebih milih muter dulu ke Kota drpd langsung..
Uuuh, masa2 itu, kursi kereta has never been look so beautiful… (buat tidur maksudnya..)
Berangkatnya, kalau beruntung, dengan berkah Ilahi yang Maha Kuasa bisa dapet duduk, bisa tidur juga setengah jam-an…
Ga mungkin sejam juga duduknya…
Bisa dpt duduk dr pancasila itu kebohongan publik…
Cm menggantungkan keberuntungan dr org2 di tebet yg turun rebutan…

Kalaupun ga dapet duduk, biasanya saking penuhnya, seiring dengan semakin padatnya orang yang menjepit dr segala arah, bisa aja tuh tidur sambil berdiri…
Orang ga usah pegangan juga udah nyangkut…
Entah deh, menurut gw pribadi sih, kl pas di kereta tuh ya, kerasa banget lho yg namanya penipisan kadar oksigen…
Badan jd lemes aja, trus ngantuk deh…
Btw, kl diliat2 lagi penjelasan di atas, bisa jadi yang selama ini gw anggap tidur berdiri itu sebenernya pingsan pelan2 ya?
Cuma gw mengambil terminologi yang ga begitu sadistic ya, hehehe…
Kamar gas, yea, that’s it..!!

Yah, berarti harus me-reschedule ulang segala jadwal harian…
Ga lucu, kantor tambah deket, pulang lebih cepet tapi malah kurang tidur..
Which is make sense sih, soalnya kl pulang naik kereta biasanya seger abis tidur sejam, smp rumah jam 10-an, trus tidurnya tengah malem..
Kebawa smp sekarang, pdhl smp rumah jam 8-an, en ga tidur pula…

Hihi, kangen ternyata sama kereta…
Hari terakhir pulang naik kereta, semua abang2 yg jualan aneh2 itu, gw panggilin…
Beli bros sm jepitan 3ribuan…
Beli lem super (boongan) seribuan…
Liat2 kaos kaki 5ribu dpt 3 pasang…
(pdhl udh pension pk kaos kaki sejak lepas seragam putih abu2 sekian thn yg lalu…)
Beli pulpen 10rb dpt segambreng…
Permen 5rban dpt serenteng…
Duuh, smp ga tidur, cm mau menikmati…
More than 3 years of my life…

Melenceng amat ya, tulisan ini…?
Awalnya kan soal kacamata???

first post...

posting pertamaku...

(hmm, males banget ya..?)



actually, sdh punya blog, tp lupa passwordnya.. bodoh bener ya?

si buta techno... hehe

daripada pusing, mending bikin yg baru... lebih praktis dan ramah lingkungan...

yg dulu juga bikin dari 2005, ga pernah di buka... malah alamatnya sempet lupa, kl ga kebetulan sempet nyatet di hape...



anyway...

masih di kantor... (fiuh... tanggal 23, besok gajian... akhirnya beres juga...)

dulu mana kebayang bisa segini santainya...

kantor jakarta pusat, rumah lenteng agung (which is somewhere pinggiran jakarta yg ga pernah keliatan di peta jakarta terbitan manapun kecuali peta gunther...)

waktu pertama kerja disini (2 tahunan yg lalu...) selalu ngerasa panik kl jam segini...

sekarang? kepikir pulang aja belom...



mungkin krn sudah temenan sama kereta ya?

dengan semua jadwal yg mistis itu...

at least tau kapan harus pulang lah...

i love you my dear old ruin train... ^_^

dimana lagi selain indonesia, bisa naik kereta sebelahan sm tukang duren en tukang otak2 ?



7.10...

masih males pulang, nyambi buka friendster...

ini juga sama aja... anak asuh yg terlantar, ga pernah gw buka, hehehe...



ya sud lah...

yg penting udahngisi dulu...

laper euy...