the doors...

never thought that an open door can make such a painful effect on me...

never realize that the pain is caused by my self...
that i'm killing my own soul...
never thought all this time the door are kept open...
thought i've closed it long time ago...
putting myself in the way to keep the door open all this time...
keeping the wound open at the same time...
something i never realize..

that open door keeping myself to open my eyes...
to see that the hallway are filled with so many other doors...
my hands, my hearts are too pre-occupied to say that i'm okay...
well i'm not...

when the open door is being knocked again...
too afraid to let it closed...
fortunately sane enough to keep it from being open too wide...
not again...

took a lot of my strength to pull my hands and close that door...
it's hard and painful...
but when it's closed, i'm thinking...
i should've done it so much long before...

no, it's not that i'm not good enough...
but i'm too damn good for you...


- grow up! will u!? -

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